As SAlaam Alaikum,
He called me at 2:22 in the morning and I spoke to him. Just when I thought that I was making some sort of progress he once again shut and down and told me how he didn’t want to try. His reason? He just didn’t want to. This hurts so much because I really would like to be with him.
I sit there and try to explain and he hangs up on me. I call a few more times but he does not answer and just forwards me to his mailbox. I text him telling him that I am not angry, that I love him still, and talk about prayer.
I am trying to avoid getting angry at him right now. Much of me realizes that I do need to move on but I am not going to be divorced until Feb. 3 Islamically so it’s like, why waste all of those months not trying to make it work? And who knows when he will ever file the divorce papers? This again, just hurts and makes me feel horrible inside. It is the worst feeling that I feel.
I just need a reason why he does not want to be with me, besides he just doesn’t want to. I need to know why he believes that we are no longer compatable when I make efforts to compromise, etc. I need to know these things in order to move on with my life. I need a proper closure, not just some “it’s over because I don’t want to work it out” excuse. No, tell me. Please tell me husband!
Tomorrow we are suppose to meet up to talk about bills… but I don’t know if that will even happen now. I guess tomorrow will be my last attempt to try to get him back, and then I will quit for a while.
Please everyone pray for me.
Filed under: divorce, seperation
